I've always had homo fantasies without being outwardly "gay". Then I started wearing boxers and my libido has lessened. I guess I'm not getting by the squeeze in my package throughout the day. Anyway, the one type of sex I could experience- good homo masturbatory fantasy- and now have a healthier albeit nearly sexless existence. I'm a virgin for men and women and sudddnly feel my life has no direction. I'm earning good money at work now, but feel very suicidal on a nightly basis.