Every time I start getting clean or working towards it I realise there%u2019s no poont or no hope of getting a life. I%u2019m unemployable, unlovable, not attra tive, who will want a kid with someone over 35 now? Bisexuals are looked down on most of the LGBT community and I have no friends and no one likes me. Oh but I%u2019m so #####ing crap I can%u2019t even score heroin again. I%u2019ve been out of the loop for three months and lost my contacts. But I want to die so I need to find a contact again, enjoy for a while.