I haven't cut for almost 5 years...til today.

I did a google search for the girl of my dreams, I didn't find her, now I'm going to masturbate instead. This seams so depressing to me.

Sometimes i feel depressed to the point where i want to end myself. I just want people to like me for who i am, not for who they want me to be. I try to be my self, but without confidance i turn into someone else. It doesn't help that I have to hide my true self to my family. Mom, Dad, Everyone. IM BISEXUAL and I dont give a #### if you hate it. To EVERYBODY!!! I am who i am and even if you put the fear of god in me, i will not stop being who i am!!!

I touched my bro when i was fourteen while watching tv with family. He was asleep. I fear that ill become a serial rapist since i like to read things about torture and canabilisim

I dont think ill ever stop trying to die. Its like smoking a cigarret from the first puff i was hooked. And beside people make it so easy.Theyve kicked me and thrown me to the ground. They made me sick and the only blame i take is not curing my sickness permantly in the first place. Read between the lines smart one.

i always think that i'm over my ex, and i was sure about that but two days ago i had a dream in which i was lying in a bed and i was really cold and suddenly my ex came and lyied on the bed with me and hugged me and kept me warm. In that part of the dream i woke up and i remember i had a smile on my face feeling happy inside, but didn't know why.. untill i remembered that part of my dream. and i was like: WHAT?... i was so sure i didn't love him anymore, but this dream has #####ed my mind up

i pretend to have a wonderful live, and i actually don't, because that's the only thing left to me... pretend everything is alright

Its 5;20 am and as I sit naked at my computer I know as usual, my next door neighbor Steve is peeking in my side window. This has been going on for several months and I've gone from letting him see me in my bra and panties to being naked every morning. As soon as it becomes light outside he goes back into his house. most of the time he is in his underware but twice, I know of he was naked also.

Do you ever feel alone? But then you talk to someone and you realize you are just like everyone else. Which is worse? Realizing that you are alone..? or that you are just like every other human being to ever exist? We are all decaying organic matter going no where.

So I am a average 14 year old boy in year 9. (I assume that grade 9 for America) I masturbate often, probably about once a day. Normal I think. I don't get into any trouble at school, never get sent out or get detentions, ever. But... So I have got into more porn since the start of year 9 I guess. I'm just gonna say what happened. In science class, we had a woman assistant helping us - she had teached us a few times. She bent over my table, helping my friend next to me. I had touch a few arses/